Part of the long holiday weekend was full of reminders. It was bittersweet seeing old Facebook and photo album memories. We spent the last couple of years in Pagosa Springs in early September. It just so happened over the Labor Day holiday. Both trips were great, and it was becoming a thing for us to…

Saturday, I was pretty tired and slept in a bit. I typically leave later on the weekend since traffic isn’t as bad. The problem is sometimes, not always, the team comes early to the round. This Saturday, they did, and I missed them. Amanda texted to let me know when I was on the way…

Thursday morning, I could hear the cardio in the hall talking with the NP. They were arguing about something. He was being condescending to her. So it wasn’t just me; he was that way with everyone. He has the air of a surgeon, the cockiness for sure. The wound was the hot-button issue for us.…

On Monday morning, I had a specific place in mind where I was going to get a breakfast taco for Amanda. In Texas, we have Stripes, a gas station that fixes tacos. Nothing special, but they make their own flour tortillas and make them and your taco to order. 7-Eleven bought them out, and I…

Friday, as I was going to leave for the football game, Amanda was having trouble breathing. She was getting a little anxious about me leaving, I think. She’s been getting anxious about odd things lately. She was worried about getting to bed early because I wasn’t going to be there to get her in bed.…

The late dialysis on Tuesday was only a liter out of a goal of two. Blood pressure seems to be an issue with getting enough fluid off. Amanda is becoming fluid overloaded, and they seem not to think it’s that much of an issue. None of the nurses are keeping up with her intake, so…

Monday, when I got to the room, I could tell Amanda wasn’t feeling good. She was nauseous and having a hard time getting her pills down. That seems to be getting worse. She also gets full quickly when eating and has been getting nauseous after eating. The cardiology was new this week. We still had…

Amanda’s blood counts have been up; with the infection, everything was all over the place. Now that I have access to her MyChart, I’ve been checking things pretty regularly. One thing that we’ve been dealing with is a low white count and neutrophil, a specific white blood cell that helps fight against infection. Both,  after…

Wednesday night, I headed home later than I wanted but at a reasonable hour. Early enough to grab some dinner, I went with Indian, not Amadna’s favorite, so I took advantage of eating alone to have what I like. I was even able to watch a show while eating and got to bed before eleven.…

This morning, when I arrived to the room, I could tell Amanda was in terrible pain, and the night didn’t go well. The nurse was giving meds, and I began to question the pain meds given overnight. IV pain meds previously available to Amanda were scaled back and were taken on the PRN, or as-needed…